So I’ve just spent the last 10 minutes sifting through life on FaceBook. I do enjoy a daily walk in social media, I’ll admit it. Announcements, prayer requests, quirky stories and pictures galore flood the news feed keep me feeling connected in some weird way. I am all for being a part of a community, albeit via social media.
Here’s my big confession. It’s not always good for me. I’m a comparer and the last 10 minutes of “FaceBooking” has left me wishing I was someone else.
Wow, I wish I could have the kind of life where I had business in an exotic place. Whoa, she looks really good and we are the same age! Her husband really treats her like a queen. I would love to have a cottage and boat. I wish I had that kind of discipline. They look like they are having so much fun, I want to go on an adventure. They look so in love and happy. Their kids are so talented. I wonder what it would be like to be that smart?
Those discontented voices sneak into my head. Voices that tease my soul into thinking I am missing something.
Isn’t that what comparing yourself really does anyway? Tell lies? If when looking at others I immediately compare myself I have an ugly problem. Envy. Rats! I wish I wasn’t like this!! I don’t get to be someone else. I only get to be me. Why isn’t that enough?
Honestly, I’ve struggled with envy as long as I can remember. I have grown since my younger years but I continue to ask God to help me; to change me. Living without envy sounds so nice.
Anytime I base my contentment on what I don’t have,
I become a hostage.
Enter God’s voice in the midst of my self-pity rant: “Christ has set us free to live a free life. So take your stand! Never again let anyone put a harness of slavery on you.” (Galatians 5:1 MSG) So I click off FaceBook to stop the madness.
Whew! I got lost for a minute, or 10.